As a child growing up, I felt extremely sheltered. I wasn’t allowed to go to sleepovers, I didn’t get to hangout as often as the other ‘cool’ and ‘popping’ kids at my elementary and high school. At times, I even felt like a damn slave. And there is nothing worse than that gut-wrenching instinct that nudges you into realizing that you just aren’t a part of a certain group, clique or society amongst people. It seems as if everyone is going in the right direction, yet you are always on the opposite end.
Have you ever pondered over why this may be? Why things have to always be so different for you? Well, it has not been until recently, that I realized that the Universe/God/the All/the Creator was guiding me on my own path and that on my individual journey, I wouldn’t be able to do a lot of the things that other people had the freedom to do. This even registers into the reality of adulthood. When you feel like you deserve something; that job, that car, the money, the fame, the attention etc… And it doesn’t come when you want it to, or it may not come at all. Have you ever thought that this may be a sign, some sort of blessing in disguise?
We ALL have our own paths to trod in life. And many of our steps forward are predetermined by fate and sometimes divine order. As I mentioned before, I used to feel so left out and held back, but it was actually God protecting me from a lot of things that probably would have tainted my spirit or even harmed who I was as a child (this even occurs for me now). But who really thinks about that as a kid… NO ONE! You just want to be in the mix, because it seems as if it is the right and cool thing to do. Perception leads us to believe many things.
I say this to encourage people to trust their experience(s). Trust what has happened in your past and have faith in the present and future. We are not in control of everything that happens, but we can choose how to react when certain situations are put before us. It’s not easy, as we are born and bred to be control freaks, but a lot of times a greater force can flip everything in one quick second.
So, if you didn’t fall in love with that one guy or girl, from junior high that you were convinced was THEE one, maybe he/she just wasn’t. And if you didn’t get that position that you know you deserved, don’t feel down or discouraged, there was a reason for it. A lot of times we short change ourselves to what looks satisfying to the mind, but our heart and being deserves much more.
Be trusting. Let go. Have Faith.